not the same **fan fic**

[dalostlorelai]

Disclaimer: I don’t own Gilmore girls. I would have the show go on forever if did and Lorelai WOULD be with Luke!


This is just a short story of when during the fight between Lorelai and Rory if rory couldn’t take it anymore. I know this is mean but she kills herself. It’s probably going to be 2 to 4 chapters. I might even surprise you all!



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Rory lay in her bed staring at the ceiling. She hated the silence of the pool house on a Saturday night. “If I was at home,” she began speaking to herself “me and mom would be having a crappy movie night with mock able movies and junk food and each other” she started crying thinking of not speaking to her mom. I hate this! She thought. If it wasn’t for Mitchem Huntzburger saying that she didn’t have ‘it’ and crushing all of her journalism dreams she wouldn’t have dropped out of Yale and most of all she would be spending this summer with her mom. Now she was living with her grandparents, which in her opinion was the best way to piss off her mom, and she wasn’t in school. She loved school! When she was little, she dragged her mom out of bed at 6:00 in the morning because she was so excited! “The teachers want to meet all the parents at 6:30,” she remembered telling her. When they got there, the school wasn’t opened yet! She decided that her life had become useless and meaningless with being in the DAR and all that she didn’t want to be around anymore. She decided to just put her self out of her misery. She wrote her mom, Luke, her grandparents and Logan each a letter * will be in the next chapter* and put each in an envelope. She held them in her purse and mailed them. She went to take what she was thinking of as the last drive of her life.
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Lorelai sat in her living room with her dog Paul Anka watching Riding the bus with my sister. She found a bunch of videos in a box that she had stached somewhere. “I’ve been looking for this!” she remembered the conversation “what is it?” asked Luke. “ its riding the bus with my sister! it’s a movie where Rosie O’Donnell plays a challenged girl who loves to ride a bus! I love this movie.” “o well lets watch it one of these days” Luke said trying to sound amused. “o no” began Lorelai “ this movie needs serious junk food. An all night movie merothon. Like the kinds I would have with… o well you wouldn’t like it” the whole rory subject was a weak point with her. So now she sat here and watched the movie all alone with her dog. “ its not the same!” she said out loud. Suddenly she felt a pain in her heart. The one she had when she felt that rory was in trouble.

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So did ya like it???
don’t worry ill update soon. This WILL not be a tear jerker. I was bored so I felt like writing it!

[dalostlorelai]

Disclaimer: I don’t own it!


This is chapter two! These are the letters that she wrote

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Lorelai’s letter


dear mom,

when you read this I may already be gone. I just want to tell you that im so sorry that I made your heart break by disappointing you. You are the best person I know and you were stuck for 20 years with a rotten daughter like me? What did you do to deserve that? You were so great and fun and you loved me when no one else did. You were my mother and my father. But most of all you were me best friend. Thanks to me you never got to do all the things you were supposed to. You didn’t go to college because you had to support me. Hell you didn’t get to graduate high school. I never really appreciated anything you did for me. You were always there when I needed you and I was never there for you. I didn’t even go to your Business school graduation! I yelled at you when you tried helping me and I moved away when I ruined my own life. I hated myself for well losing the awesome relationship that we had. So I decided to just end everything. I just wanted to tell you that I loved you and that ill always be there. As the song says ‘ just call my name and ill be there’ ha I wanted to throw a little reference at you. You were always good with those. you taught me everything you could and don’t think for one second that this was your fault. Im going to leave you with this. Every year at 4:03 AM on October 8th just look up into the sky and ill be there. I know this is hard as it being so close to my birthday and all but I want to say I remembered the plan. I remembered. Just think of it as not losing a daughter but gaining an angel. I love you mom I always have and I always will . Ill say hi to Trix for you

Love forever your newest guardian angel,
Lorelai Leigh Gilmore
p.s
I know that your crying by now so I want to tell you its okay. Im not sad anymore and im in a better place here I put a tissue and a picture of me and you. I love you squeegee bechenhiem.

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Luke’s letter

dear Luke,
when you read this go straight to my mom. She will need you more than ever. I want to tell you that I love you and I always thought of you as my dad. You were always around for me and mom, with opened arms and a coffee pot brewing. Since the day I met you I felt comfortable around you. Mom did too don’t tell her I told you. I once asked my mom if I could call you dad when I was 11. You were there when I really needed you. When I had the chicken pox to when I just needed a friendly face and a cup of coffee. You were always so nice to me too. I may not be here in body but I am in soul. Wheni heard you and mom were engaged last week I was so happy thiat I wanted to go o mom right them and there. Stupid Gilmore pride. Always gets in the way. I never really gave you a heart felt congratulations. I want you to do something for me. Its nothing big but I want you to take my place with mom during movie nights at our house. I know you don’t like movies but I want you to keep her company. I love you and now look on the bright side now I get to meet your mom and dad.

I love you Luke
your daughter
Rory Gilmore
p.s I don know if you remember this day but it was my 16th birthday. My mom snuck a picture of us when you gave me my present. Want you to have it.

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Logan’s letter

dear Logan,
hey master and commander. When you read this I will already be gone. I wanted to tell you that deep inside I really love you. I kno that I was your first serious girlfriend but I just want to tell you that you were by fat the best guy I could ask for. From the day that we performed that stunt together I knew that I would fall in love with you. You were my rock and support system through all this time and fight with my mom. I know that I really messed up everything with school but to get the whole story ask your dad because im not around anymore. I never told you this but in a few days its my birthday. Yes my 21 birthday is Saturday. Me and my mom had a plan to go to atlantics city and sit at a blackjack table at 11:59 and play 21 when I turned 21 and drink martinis . Then with our winnings we would buy 21 things. Then we would get 21 guys’ phone numbers. I didn’t wan to remember my birthday because of that.
I love you an I always will

love forever your ace
Lorelai rory Leigh Gilmore

P.S this is the picture that we took at the part you guys threw at the pub after my arrest. I will always love you Logan

[dalostlorelai]

Disclaimer: I wish I owned them but *sniffle* I don’t own Gilmore girls

the letter reactions and the lost letter
enjoy my friends

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Lorelai went to check the mail. “ junk, junk, catalog, bill, bill, a letter from rory?” she opened the letter and the tissue and picture fell out. 15 minutes later, she was on the floor gripping onto the picture hysterical crying. “ WHY? WHY DID YOU TAKE MY BABY GIRL?” she screamed at the top of her lungs, which scared Paul Anka. “my baby is gone. My baby is gone and I didn’t say goodbye!” she started rocking back and forth holding the picture.

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Luke had just closed up and made his way upstairs. He shuffled through the mail and found the letter. “wha..” he was speechless. Now as you, all know he is a big person. No real feelings showing and gruff. By the end of the letter, a single tear streamed down his face. Without thinking, he rushed out of his apartment. 10 minutes later, he was Lorelai holding her. “its okay Lorelai” he kept saying even though he knew it wasn’t. His ‘daughter’ was gone and there was nothing he could do about it. All he could do was comfort his fiancée. She needed someone. In his pocket was the picture from Rory’s 16th birthday.
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Logan was with Finn, Colin and Stephanie. They were going to call rory to meet them at the pub. “ let me just get the phone guys. Finn! Hands off the grey goose till we get the pub!” Stephanie came in and handed lagan the letter “steph where’d you get this?” “it’s a letter from rory. It was on the top of your mail. It seemed important since she could call you so here.” Logan just sat down and looked at the picture she had left for him. “ hey mate you ready yet? Im thirsty!” “me too bub lets go!” “aww Logan you okay you look pale?” the gang all started talking at once. “read… this… rory… gone… not… here…” Logan started to cry a little. Not full on blubbering but crying. His girl was gone. “ o no” Steph, Finn and Colin all said. Out of nowhere they all held Logan like there was no tomorrow.
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Lorelai was on the couch surrounded by lukes food and photo albums. She couldn’t believe what had happened only 3 days ago. After her nervous breakdown she told luke that she needed food. She also told him not to say a word. She was not ready for the swarm. It was quiet in the house. Too quiet. The only sounds were her less than steady breathing and Paul Anka chewing on a bone. All of a sudden there was a knock on the door. “ coming. Im coming.” yelled Lorelai straitening everything up. She hurried to the door to reveal a silver car at the end of the drive way. “is anyone there?” the car looked like Rory’s then she heard a sound by the sofa on the side of the porch. “ who the HELL is there” she said a little bit more aggressively. “its me.” said a muffled voice “ um, me who. Mini me? Meme from rent? Common I need more to go on here.” Lorelai said obviously confused. Not waiting for an answer since it was too cold out, she turned to walk inside. The voice became clear “ no its me. Rory” Lorelai turned white and stopped in her tracks “rory? Huh? What ? How?” she couldn’t form words. All she did was hold her crying almost 21 year old daughter “ im...so…sorry mom. I…was…so…tired of us not talking! Rory cried into her shoulder “ its okay rory mommy’s here.” Lorelai began to cry as well. Her little girl was okay and best of all they were together again

[dalostlorelai]

as you all know from the previous chapter rory didn’t kill her self. Now I know your thinking she probably rethought everything and realized this was stupid. No. here is what happened.

Rory sat at the local star bucks. This was the last exit on the express way and she needed a little coffee to ease her final day away. My last cup she thought. It’s not even good. She began to tear up thinking that she would never complain with her mom when they had sucky coffee. Just as she bit into her muffin the door opened. A man in his early 20’s holding a laptop in one hand and a book in the other emerged from the outside. He he looks familiar thought rory. She turned away from the man and began reading the random book she brought with her. The Outsiders by S.E. Hinton. She was up to the part where they find out Johnny dies when a all too familiar voice calls her “ rory?” “yea” she answered. The man from earlier plopped down in the seat across from her. “ you don’t remember me?” the man said “ JESS?!?!” she jumped up causing the table to turn over. Thank god she drank coffee fast. “happy to see me Gilmore?” “oh jess you have no idea!” rory was grateful to see him again. She wanted to say goodbye. “ jess” rory said after the table was on its feet and the were sitting down. “ uh-oh she’s got her serious voice” jess joked around “ I wanted to tell you goodbye.”
“goodbye? Where are you going Iraq?”

“ no not exactly. I don’t want to be around anymore. I was writing a letter to you but I couldn’t.”

“Ror a letter? Wha… no wait your not gonna do what I think your going to do are you?”

“yes”
“don’t joke around. Common rory you have an awesome family and a Really Really weird town that loves you.”
“ yea so?” rory answered
“and erm… I… luhh… love you.”
“what?” rory was dumbfounded
“yup its true Lorelai Leigh Gilmore I Jess William (a.n I don’t know jesses middle name) Mariano love you. Now lets talk about this. Come to my apartment and we can catch up.”

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so after catching up ( nothing dirty! Well not yet any way.) rory left jess and went to the one place she could think of. Stars Hollow. She knocked on her moms door then got nervous and hid by the couch. COWARD! her conscience kept screaming. Finally she wound up the courage to answer her mother. The woman who brought her up.

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I KNOW I KNOW SHORT! CHEAP BUT IT’S A FILLER IF YOU WOULD. I WANTED YOU TO KNOW WHY SHE BECAME SOUND. O THIS IS A LITERATI STORY!
CYA!!!!
~DEE~

[dalostlorelai]

Disclaimer: I do not own it but if you do ill buy it!

Back with chapter 5!

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after staying with her mother for a week rory decided to go get her things and start back with school. She decided to drop by Logan’s for a quick visit. When she got to the building she got into the elevator and made her way up to the top floor. Exiting the elevator she went to his door 12B. She knocked and a girl with blonde hair answered the door. “ can I help you?” the girl asked with a snotty attitude. “ yes um im looking for Logan.” rory replied. She was never that good around strangers. “ why do you need Logan? He’s with me now.” the girl replied bitterly “ wha… with you? How? Oh no!” he couldn’t believe it. She was only gone for a week and he already got a new girlfriend. This could not be happening. “Who is it Tina?” Logan said approaching the door. “Some girl looking for you.” she answered. “Im very sorry miss but… Rory?” “Nice Logan really nice” without letting Logan reply she ran down the hall to the elevator. She couldn’t understand why he would do this. She went to the one place that she knew she was absolutely welcome. She was always welcome with her mom but she was busy so she went to Philadelphia. Why you ask? To see none other than Jess. She went to knock on his door hoping that he was home. “who is it?” she heard his voice behind the steel door. “ its Rory.” she said. “hold on I’ll be right there.” a few seconds later he came to the door. By that time Rory’s eyes were tear stained. “Whats wrong rory?” “I broke up with Logan.” she stated simply. “ oh that’s terrible.” jess said hugging her. She was in a moment of weakness and she came to him. “ don’t worry im here. Here come in.” “ can I crash here tonight?” she asked after she calmed down. “sure anytime rory. Ill go get some food and a movie or whatever and we can just ya know hang out.” “that sounds great jess really” “ okay ill be back in a bit. Sit tight” rory called her mom and told her everything. She didn’t know why but when she talked to her mom everything seemed better. When jess got back her had two full bags of all different kinds of food and like 10 movies. Rory stayed with him for two days then realized that she was supposed to start school in a week so she needed to get everything set. “ so I’ll um see you around” jess said giving her a hug good bye. “ umm jess what are you don’t on Saturday night?” “nothing why?” “would you like to go on a date. Dinner maybe?” “um sure totally I was actually gonna ask you the same thing. Ill pick you up at 8?” “ sounds great bye jess!” rory stated then gave him a quick peck. She got a man who will treat her right. Now she was happy.

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there will be more.
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